Well hello to my xanga community that I seem to have left for the past 3 months.  Man, ive been quite busy lately.  Life has just been… crazy.  NO… im not going to be giving you a detailed description of what has happened every day for the past 3 months like I did in pretty much every other entry.  I know you’re thinking…. yay!  lol.  But….. hmm…. where to start?  This will prolly end up being a long entry nonetheless.  Ive missed this little box to type in and get out all my aggressions.

I think the first order of business is to tell you all the new form from which I am writing this entry….. I finally got my laptop!!!!!!!!!!  It’s a dell inspiron 1501…. And its quite nice.  Its very pretty.   I got it a couple weekends ago while at the cabin with my mom’s family.  For yay!   Its about time… my parents have been saying they’re gonna buy me one for like 2 years now.  And its finally here!

Other good news…..  My roommate is pregnant!!!!!!  Allison’s little baby is due Jan 21st…. 8 days before my bday!!  Possible names are…. MacKenzie Lee, Kaylee, Keelee Jayn, Gabriel, and Mason.  I’m so excited!!!  She wants it to be a boy, but her man wants it to be a girl, and she’s thinking it will most likely be a girl based on the fact of where the baby is in her tummy and how it acts.   BTW… Keith came up w/ MacKenzie… it’s a really pretty name and ive already told her that if she doesnt take it for this child then I will take it for my first child haha.  The sad news tho… she’s moving back home w/ Chuck in May :(… I’m loosing my Allison…

In other news…. my girl crisha’s grandma died the Monday before I went to my cabin.  She was thankfully at home when it happened…. But its still really sad.  Then her grandpa (other parent and only remaining grandparent) died right after that… how sad!

I already told you, that falling is easy it's getting back up that becomes the problem…

Life kinda sucks right now… the only ppl I hang out w/ are allison, crisha, derek, and occasionally Gene.  Allison wont go out dancing w/ me cuz of the baby and sleeps a lot… we hang out occasionally but mostly just trying to get days off from work together so we can see each other.  Crisha and I were supposed to go to the river one day, but it ended up being a really crappy day so we just stayed in fargo, went out to eat and went to a movie.  I finally just went frolfing the other day with allison for the first time since last summer sometime… back when I was still w/ andy… man, that was a long time ago….  I’m trying to get together w/ my other allison, but it never quite works out.   I havent really seen her since school got out… yeah, we met up at ribfest and saw each other at the fair, but each time we only saw each other for a little bit then went our separate ways.  Gene just came back into my life about a week and a half ago.  He had been gone for about a month and a half.   Like he was pushing everyone away….  and that’s another story im going to go into now.

Ok… so he moved away right?  Well…due to certain circumstances he ended up quitting his job w/ his ex’s dad.  And went to the cities to look for a new one instead of coming back to Fargo.  So… one weekend I call him to say im comin through the cities and would like to see him… well… he lies and says yeah he’s in the cities, but cant see me cuz of work.  Ok… well, when I get back to Fargo, he tells me he’s not in the cities at all, but actually back in Fargo working.   And he wont make the time to see me.  So I got pissed, and at the same time he had a bunch of shit going on in his life and pushed everyone away, and said some really mean stuff to me to push me away.  Well… the Monday after I get back from my cabin he calls to say that he’d like to see me again and would like to talk.  Ok… well we did get together once… hopefully next week again if work lets him of early enough…. Were supposed to hang last night but he didn’t get off till 10 and had to be back at 5.  The situation is so confusing tho.  He doesn’t want to be my bf… at every opportunity he keeps reminding me of the fact that we’re not dating.  But we talk almost every night right before he goes to bed… im prolly one of the last people he talks to almost every night.  A little confusing huh??  We’re not doing ANYTHING… trust me… until he wants to be my bf.  I understand… a lot of shit has happened recently… I can try to wait for awhile… we’ll just see how it goes. 

Hmm… that weekend I went home?  It was for Ty’s graduation party/ celebrate my bro’s 18th.  Scary!  My bro’s actually old enough to buy cigarrettes, I just hope he’s kicked that habit like he told Ty and I that he had…. And another scary thing?  My second cousin, Ben, who just so happens to be one of Ty’s best friends since they’re in the same grade and go to the same school… well he left for basic for the Navy the end of June.  And thankfully we got Ty and Jr talked out of joining some form of US military.

Pain, without love, Pain, I can't get enough, Pain, I like it rough, 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all…      I know That you're wounded, You know That I'm here to save you, You know I'm always here for you, I know That you'll thank me later…

Just… idk… ive kinda been in a bit of a slump lately.  I’m just in this…. rut… idk.  Basically right after school got out… just… not totally completely happy.  I seriously can’t believe its been so long since I’ve had an actual boy… and it sucks…. But I also don’t really want anyone… well that I can have.  There are a LOT of guys right now who would like the position… but im only interested in one… and cant allow myself to even be interested in anyone else, as much as I would like to be.  Kinda just waiting for someone to come up… but its so hard.  Is this one I cant get over the one or is there someone else?  I don’t know where to turn… I’m not going to Spain anymore this semester… prolly wont study abroad at all… if I don’t I can be done w/ school in just 2 years… and so only have to pay for one full year of school by myself… if I go I would have to pay for an additional 1/2 year or more… depending on if I end up majoring in spanish or not.  Life’s just… kinda sucking right now.  Grr…

Idk… I guess that’s all for now… a very broad jist of what has been going on lately with me… hopefully it wont be 3 months until I write again, but we’ll see.  Hopefully things will start turning around soon… guess we’ll see.  Laters all.

Jess

Teardrops on My Guitar – Taylor Swift

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

I'm BACK! Tanner... and w/ lots of stories!

GENE AND I WENT ON OUR FIRST 'OFFICIAL' DATE LAST NIGHT!!!!!!!  Hahaha..... well... ok.... i dont know if you can call it official... but yeah, we went on an ACTUAL date for once... hehehe!  He took me to Applebees, then we went and rented a movie, and back to my place to watch it.  Hehehe!  For yay!  And next Thursday he said he was taking me to stomp the yard... either that or he's buying Pursuit of Happyness (he promised he'd take me to it when it got to the cheap theatre, and it never went there even tho it comes out next week, its still at west acres) and he would line the hallway w/ rope lights, and have popcorn set up in my room so it was like he was taking me to a movie hahaha... how romantic!  Lol... he's such a sweetie!  No, we're not dating yet, and we prolly never will officially date :(... Bah on him moving back home :(....... But yeah, it sucks cuz of his school schedual that we can only either go out to eat to a nice restaurant OR go to a movie :(... we'll just have to keep eating and renting then :P.

In other news... this summer I *might* be getting an internship w/ McNellius doing AutoCAD work.... for sweet!  My advisor just told me about it today.  It would prolly only be like 25-30 hours a week, and then I'd prolly work at Walmart on the weekends or something... idk, we'll see what happens. 

Hmm... other new fun and exciting stuff... well... the monday before I left for break, Gene took me out on a drive in his Chevy Avalanche... we just drove all around Fargo for like an hour, out in the country, almost got stuck in some snow on a minimal maintence road haha, and yeah. 

Thurs night before I left (8th) Allison and I were SUPPOSED to meet keith and Erica at the Venue for ladies night... but she ducked out on me to be w/ Chuck :(...  grr...

But the next day I went home... yay!!!!!!  Fri night... went for supper at Mr. Pizza to see Jr at work, then went back home, finished Greys, and finished the last bit of packing I had to do for my trip.  Saturday, got up, and left roch about 10:30 to head to the cities to catch our flight.  Stopped for lunch in the cities, Ty, Jr, Meg, and I... and our waitress was hitting on Jr!!!!!  Lol... twas so funny.  Our flight left here at 2:30, and we landed in Vegas at 3:45 pm, to like 85 degree weather.  Hehe... I changed into flip flops while we were waiting for our baggage lol.  Went to the hotel, Eric met us there to get us a room key, then Eric left town and us girls went to go meet Mel at MARGARITAVILLE!  Where we of course started our trip off right w/ a shot and a drink.  Got to keep our shot glasses too :P.  That night we did a LOT of walking. We walked to NY NY and got frozen drinks at Coyote Ugly, then went to the Luxor and rode some really stupid rides, then kept walking, ended up back at our hotel and called it a night early cuz Meg and I were so tired from our trip... (early is 1:30 am lol). 

Sunday... got up about 11, got out the door by 1 and went to Flamingo for their breakfast buffet.  Did some shopping, bought tickets to the show American Storm (good show... look it up on google :P), and did some more shopping.  Went to Treasure Island, to the bar Kahunaville, and got these HUGE drinks, got to keep those glasses too :P.  Went back to the hotel to change (like 7 now), and made our way up the strip to Rivera for the show.  Afterwards, went to this bar at Imperial Palace, but it kinda sucked, Mel pimped up 2 guys for us to hang out w/ (Cody, squirted oj out his nose at Dennys, and Tim, green shirt, from Jersey) lol, and we went over to the Carnival at Harrahs.  (Here, it might be good to note that the hotels went as followed... Wynn, Venitian, Casino Royale (ours), Harrahs, Imperial Palace, Flamingo, Barbary Coast, Bally's, Paris, Aladdin, MGM Grand, on our side of the street.  NY was across from MGM, then it went Excalibur, Luxor, and Mandalay Bay, where we were the night before.)  So at Harrahs, Mel bumps me into the middle of this group of 3 guys (Chris, Trevor, and Errol Flynn, yes his real name! from Boston, work at a Tapas Bar :o !).  We all head to the floor and start dancing, then it closes down!  (3 am...)  So we head to find a liquor store, and end up at 7-11 which is between Aladdin and MGM Grand... yeah, long walk... neways, get some alcohol, and meet these 3 guys on a semi-pro baseball team from San Jose, CA (Jeremy, just turned 21/projectile vomit, Jason, jumped in wishing pond, and Nick, broken arm).  The descriptions are how we kept them all apart the next day lol.  Well... Jeremy and Cody got in a beer chugging contest, but kept tying!  Like they did it 3 times!  Then about half of us had to use the restroom, so we went to Aladdin and started walking aroung the mall to find some.  Well we stopped at this stage and started playing around on it, then ran into this wishing pond.  Well, Jason, the oldest of us all, decided it would be fun to walk in there, then took off his shirt and did a belly flop, and got in trouble by the security guard.  Finally left there around 5 or so, and the Cali boys had to leave us :'(.  Jeremy wanted to stay, but couldnt...  So the rest of us ended up at Dennys at 7 am, and finally to bed about 8:30.

Woke up at 12 cuz there was some stuff we wanted to do before we left, and ended up back at the hotel at 6 to take a 2 hour nap haha.  Went and caught some of the free shows like TI pirates and the volcano at Mirage, and walked around the Venitian and ate supper there at 11.  Then went back to the Carnival, and met 3 boys from MT!!  And... now Mel is kinda dating one!  Haha... it was crazy, the guy mel was w/ Matt was 28, Joe, his bro, was 23 dancing w/ Megan, and Chad, Joes best friend, was 21, the one I was dancing w/.  Talk about perfect ages!  Craziness.  Then Matt and Mel went off, we kinda followed them to the Bellagio pool, then went to Ballys where Meg and I and our guys took a taxi back to their hotel, Circus Circus, which is a MAZE!, while Mel and Matt went to ours to talk all night.  Meg and I were able to sleep from about 5-9... then got up and went to pack, so we could leave, were supposed to be back at 8.......... oops.  Then finally got out of town at 12, but not before Meg got in a car accident... no details tho... "somebody backed into us in the Casino Royale parking lot."  Got back and just chilled at Mels and went to bed early cuz we were so tired. 

Wednesday... got up late, watched a rather sad movie that I cant remember the name of, sat outside tanning, then took her daughter to see the movie Bridge to Terabithia... which is REALLY good but REALLY sad... us 3 older girls were just bawling.  Then went out for dessert at Claim Jumpers... and home to bed.

Thursday... went to see my grandparents in Florence!  And they took us out for lunch :D!  And went swimming in their heated pool :D (Mels wasnt heated and was REALLY cold!).  Afterwards got stuck in 2+ hours of traffic, grr... then went out to the Cheesecake factory... nummy!!!!!!!  Had apps and cheesecake... and a drink of course :P. 

Friday... last day in town!  Layed out again, did a lil shopping, then went out w/ some friends of Mel's to Salty Senoritas and Dirty Martini's... hehehe... at Salty Senoritas met these 2 guys originally from Milwaukee!!!!!  And got really drunk... so drunk that we were sick most of saturday, Megan and I thankfully getting better soon enough to get on the plane and come home. 

Sunday, got up at 12, had a steak dinner, and left at 3, and talked w/ Gene from mile marker 40 till I got into Moorhead :D... lol.

And this past week just been doin hw and work and school... i need more of a rest from that crazy vaca!  Lol... But... now it is technically saturday, and an hour into it, and i have to work at 11:30, for 9 hours :S... so I must go to bed...

But one quick thing... grr... why do so many boys have to be assholes?  Im currently friends w/ this guy who finds every opportunity to cheat on his gf of like 3-4 years... and he used to be roommates w/ Nate, how crazy!!!!!  So Nate's been tellin me all these stories.... its interesting...  They dont like each other, at all.... Derek was bashing Nate, and then found out I dated him and was now good friends w/ him... funny how small this world is.  Grr... cheaters just piss the hell out of me.... and I have a certain one that keeps telling me he's done w/ me, but WONT LEAVE ME ALONE TO DO WHAT I WANT!  What does he care that I talk about him, or what I think about him, as long as I dont ever talk to him again, cuz all he tries to do is make himself better in my eyes when he tries to contact me again, but it doesnt work!  As a matter of fact, it just lowers him and how I view him... but y does he care so much now what I think?  I'm over and done, I just wish he would do the same... I dont care if he says anything mean and nasty about me, just like I dont w/ Andy... who btw is spreading all kinds of shit and lies about me... but w/e.... he'll say what he wants, he's not in my life and for that i'm happy... he can do what he wants cuz he's gonna anyway, whether I threaten him to stop or not *HINT HINT* to someone!  So why does this certain person care so much?  Its really annoying... each time I see that he's trying to contact me it makes me want to throw up...

But yeah..... I wish someone would call me :(... he said he'd try, but if he didnt it meant he was really busy, so in other words I cant really try him till Sunday night/Mon morning :(... boo...

Now to bed I go... Night all!

Jess

Currently Watching Grey's Anatomy - Season One By Patrick Dempsey, Sandra Oh see related

Well hey e'erbody... how goes it?  Time has just been flying by for me.  Still nothing w/ Gene... he just 'wants to slow down...' whatever that means.  I'm ok w/ it tho... I mean, he just got out of a 4 year relationship...  It just sucks cuz we really dont have that much time... time is against us here... He leaves town in 2 1/2 months!  Grr... 

But in other news... I go home in 1 week!!!  And one week and one day from right now, I will be on a plane to VEGAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Yay!!!!  I'm so excited... I cant wait!  Megan and I fly down there to meet Mel Saturday the 10th at 2:30.  So excited!  We're trying to get the boys to take us up to the airport... and go out to lunch w/ them before we go up... not that we're not going to be spending enough money over the next week anyway haha.  But it'll be fun... the 4 of us havent really hung out since Christmas... but that was also w/ the whole families...  Its been forever and a day since it was just the 4 of us. 

Grr... I'm on Allison's compy right now cuz mine wont have internet till Wed... and urgh... the t and the r have problems... like you have to push really hard for them to work.  And what sucks is our internet here got turned off a day early... stupid people that tell us one thing and do another... Neways...

Man... I have been so busy lately... between work and school and whatever else... crazyness.  Our roommates just moved out the past couple days... so now its just Allison and I... and we've been getting new things to fill up our place.  Its been fun... but man... today is the first time in too long that I can just sit and do whatever I want.  I didnt go to class... but i did get dishes done, my sheets washed, and got a couple errands ran... all in all it was a pretty productive day. 

Well... I suppose I should go back to where I left off huh?  Well... after the 10th... the next major day was the 14th... he bought me a flower!!!!!!  I was so not expecting anything!  He ended up waking up late... and (I was at class) on his way to class he called Allison to make sure she was here so he could leave the flower in a vase in my room.  She helped him get it ready too.  Hehehe. 

Then fri the 16th, went home!  Took Justin's gf down to see him... and on my way home, my car stalled in town!  Saturday, went with my dad and bro skiing at Welch Village... twas so much fun!  I havent been downhill skiing in forever!  I spent all day skiing w/ my dad.... and at the end of the day he took me into the bar chalet and bought me my 'first drink' from him.  Then we all went home, showered, and went out to eat at Carlos O'Kellys... and lo and behold, who comes walking in, but Rich and Marly haha.  Dont try to do anything together, and we always end up hanging out anyway haha.  (Meg and Ty's parents)  Sunday... went to church... mom and I ran errands... and my car died on my mom 2x.... and my parents decided it prolly wouldnt be a good idea if i took my car back to school, so I took mom's car!  Yay, finally get the Explorer!  And my dad is sick of fixing my car, so I get a new one!  And my mom bought me a new suit and sandals for my trip!  Mon, doctor's app, and lunch w/ my mom and dad at Pizza Hut... then back to Fargo...  boo... but did get to see Gene for a bit before he had to work...

Hmm... over the next week... work and school...  Then fri the 23rd... went out to eat w/ Crisha, Jesse, and a friend of Jesse's Wookie.... who now wants to go on an actual date w/ me.. :S....  He seems cool and all... I just dont know.  I mean, I have Gene...  I just... grr...  Plus, Wookie is 30... too old.... my mom would kill me.  After dinner we went to go see Ghost Rider.... good movie!

Sunday... i woke up at 7 am and got sick :S.  So... called in that day. 

And have been pretty much doing nothing but work and school since... did go out to eat Tues night w/ Allison when I got home from work to Perkins... but other than that just work hw and classes.  And it sucks.  Now... I suppose I better get going... gotta make my bed, finish dishes, and make supper (ready at 10 when Allison gets off work... and have to save a piece for Crisha... )  I'm making my parents oh so nummy venison burger homemade pizza... numminess.  So... laters all.

Oh... and I leave you with anoher one of my favorite songs right now... you might be able to figure out why... but yeah.  Laters all!

Jess

Before He Cheats - Carrie Underwood

Right now he's probably slow dancing with a bleach blonde tramp,
and she's probably getting frisky...
right now, he's probably buying her some fruity little drink cause she can't shoot whiskey...

Right now, he's probably up behind her with a pool-stick, showing her how to shoot a combo...

And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little suped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...

Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

Right now, she's probably up singing some
white-trash version of Shania karoke..
Right now, she's probably saying "I'm drunk"
and he's a thinking that he's gonna get lucky,
Right now, he's probably dabbing on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo...
And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little suped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats,
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...

Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

I might saved a little trouble for the next girl,
Cause the next time that he cheats...

Oh, you know it won't be on me!

Ohh... not on me...
Cause I dug my key into the side of his pretty little suped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...

Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

Ohh.. Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats...

Ohh... before he cheats...

Hokay... so... about that time, eh, chaps? ... right oh.  ROUND!!!!  Haha... that is the funniest thing to be in the same room as Allison and on the phone w/ Gene and hear them both yell that out at the same time.  Yeah, Gene and I have pretty much went no where since my last post about a week and a half ago.  Grr... and boys are stupid... throw rocks at them...  Stupid Steve... a guy that works till 2 am so works w/ Gene most of the night, but was my friend first, and I can complain to him but he dont care haha.  Anyway... he lied to me last night... not too happy about it... Why cant boys stop lying and keeping secrets?  And now Gene is in cahoots w/ Allison... haha funny story... So I ask Gene to go on a real date, while he's sitting in front of all of his buddies from class, it was on the phone but still... They were giving him shit about it lol.  It was funny... so he's got this awesome idea of what to do for this date, but its a surprise... but I already know something's going down... it just sucks not knowing what.  I like surprises... I just dont like not knowing... and people dangling things like this in front of me.  And apparently he needs time to prepare??  Huh?  Umm... ok...

Anyways... I suppose I should start off w/ the night of my bday and start straightening a few details out huh?  My birthday was awesome!!!!  First shot... a blow job from Tara.  Lol.  Then an applebee's perfect margarita, mango, then from Tyler a shot of Parrots Bay Mango.   Mmm...  And he (Gene) came to the restaurant, gave me a hug, and 2 kisses!!!!!!  But then left super early for work that was just across the street :(.  So what'd we (Allison, Darrin and I) do after dinner?  Go to Walmart before heading to Bucks haha.  Got $10 from Shea for whatever shots I want yay!  (Shea and Tyler are the twins.)  And a camera, cuz I forgot my new digital at home :(.  Sad night... Anyway.... Get to bucks, and I didnt know that you also need the yellow slip w/ your ID after its been clipped... so had to run all the way back to the apt. anyway.  Hehehe... "do you have the people?  yes, they're in the trees." -Me quoting Madagascar (What is it w/ me and animated movies while feelin it?  haha), "Youre CUTOFF!" - Allison ... on the way to the apt to get my papers.  We're met at Bucks by work Teresa, her gf ashley, and Amanda.  And later by Crisha when she got off work, thats who's in the pic w/ me... my girl Crisha!  Twas lots of fun... and drank way too much... and met a really cute boy who's bday was 2 weeks earlier... haha.  Crisha got his and his friends' numbers... but all he wanted that night was a piece and I am only for one guy right now... so yeah. 

Next interesting night... Thursday night... tuesday and wednesday were spent semi mad at Gene for not calling me back, and we didnt hang out... anyway... this is supposed to be our double date night... well, Crisha and Jesse of COURSE back out, so its just Gene and I.  Well... Allison gets invited to go to a movie w/ us, and we go see Open Season at Safari... funny movie!!!  Haha.  Afterwards, Gene and I rent Waist Deep and ATL, go back to my place, and only watch half of each.... and hey, before you say anything... we were both sleeping during that half of ATL!  Lol.  What can I say... he didnt leave till 3 am!  But he did leave :(... oh well.  He had shit to do... so yeah. 

Saturday (Feb 3)... Megan came to visit me!!  Yay!  Went to Friday's for supper, then went out to Mr. G's.  That was a lot of fun... Saw Dan, yelled at him for not calling me back on my bday haha, and danced our butts off.  And met this guy who's a total jerk, but we're not getting into that story.

Hmm... nothing else really worth mentioning then till last night (thurs).  Allison and I went to Night at the Museum, then grocery shopping.  That twas lots of fun... we havent really done anything just the 2 of us in so long!  It was definitely needed.  We were both a lil frusterated w/ the male species, so we just needed a girls night.  And it helped... till we got to Walmart and went thru Steve's line and he lied to me about where Gene was supposed to take me... he told me to expect a call fri morning at around 4-5 then breakfast at either Denny's or Perkins.  I shoulda known it was a lie... Lord knows I've been lied too enough by guys... But meh... he started running away from me when I was in there visiting Allison tonight and picking up the movie Flicka haha.  Twas funny... he knew I was out to kick his ass, and he didnt want to be anywhere nearby.  \

Hmm... in other news.... My mom's cousin Jen/Jordan is pregnant!!!!!  (Don and Linda's daughter)  Noone EVER expected this!  Haha... I dont think anyone expected her to get married... and they were supposed to marry next summer... maybe they'll move it up and elope and have a vow renewal next summer?  Who knows... But she's due in August... eewww... summer pregnant down in Texas... haha.... thats gonna suck... but her and this guy just met like 6 or 7 months ago, and got engaged shortly before Christmas... she says its cuz she's getting old (35 in a month...) haha.  But yeah... craziness!

Grr... still no call from my boy... bah on his dad being angry w/ him so I cant talk to him on his lunch hours!!!  His dad and him have been fighting lately, so his lunch hours are spent talking w/ his dad when we said we'd talk then... boo.  This is like the 3rd night in a row... I thought maybe he'd call me by the time this was done... but now his lunch hour is over... booo.  And grr... grr boo spat hiss on him.  Lol.  Yeah, I'm in a better mood after Flicka...

Mmk... today I'm gonna leave you with a song... didnt last time, but this time I'm gonna.  Its one of my fave songs right now... and heh... If Gene and I are either together or on the phone talking when this comes on we both sing it :D.  Lol... neways....

Watching You - Rodney Atkins

Driving through town just my boy and me
With a happy meal in his booster seat
Knowing that he couldn't have the toy
Till his nuggets were gone
Green traffic light turned straight to red
I hit my breaks and mumbled under my breath
His fries went a flying and his orange drink covered his lap
Well then my four year old said a four letter word
That started with "s" and I was concerned
So I said son now now where did you learn to talk like that

[Chorus one]

He said I've been watching you dad, ain't that cool
I'm your buckaroo, I wanna be like you
And eat all my food and grow as tall as you are
We got cowboy boots and camo pants
Yeah we're just alike, hey ain't we dad
I wanna do everything you do
So I've been watching you

We got back home and I went to the barn
I bowed my head and I prayed real hard
Said lord please help me help my stupid self
Then this side of bedtime later that night
Turning on my son's scooby doo nightlight
He crawled out of bed and he got down on his knees
He closed his little eyes, folded his little hands
And spoke to god like he was talking to a friend
And I said son now where'd you learn to pray like that

[Chorus two]

He said I've been watching you dad, ain't that cool
I'm your buckaroo, I wanna be like you
And eat all my food and grow as tall as you are
We like fixing things and holding mama's hand
Yeah we're just alike, hey ain't we dad
I wanna do everything you do
So I've been watching you

[Bridge]

With tears in my eyes I wrapped him in a hug
Said my little bear is growing up
He said but when I'm big I'll still know what to do

[Chorus three]

Cause I've been watching you dad, ain't that cool
I'm your buckaroo, I wanna be like you
And eat all my food and grow as tall as you are
By then I'll be as strong as you and superman
We'll be just alike, hey won't we dad
When I can do everything you do
Cause I've been watching you

I miss my dad... oh well, next weekend!!  Yeah, I'm gonna be home next weekend.  And taking Justin's gf down to see him... what a nice person I am...  And next weekend is a weekend Gene and I coulda prolly hung out a lot :(.... hopefully the weekend after that... or else I'm going to Bis to see Erin... it all depends on my work schedual...  bah on Walmart...

Ok... night all!

Jess

Finally 21!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yep, thats right, today Jess turned 21!  Watch out!

Haha... so what have I been up to the past month??  Oh so damn much... I dont even know where to begin!  I suppose at the beginning...

New Year's party wasn't all that great... Allison had a kidney infection :(... but the next day went shopping w/ Crisha and ate at Olive Gardin :D:D.  Then come to find out later on that the guy I'm kinda seeing lost one of his best friends in a car accident new year's eve... and they just had the funeral last weekend... and he's not doing good at all :(.  Well... he's starting to... but there's a whole lot more to the story than just that.

Yep... thats right.  Eugene and I are basically dating.  Not bf/gf yet... but dating/seeing each other.  And those are his words, not mine :P.  I had Crisha do a lil intel for me.  Speaking of that, her, Jesse, me and Gene are supposed to be going on a double date this thursday... how excited am I?!?!  She asked Gene, and he said to talk to me... so I guess that basically means we're doin it.  Thats like... or first date basically.  Cuz all we do is hang out and watch movies... and once he bought pizza and another time took me to taco bell cuz i was hungry and just got off work.

Dierks Bentley was an AWESOME CONCERT!!  Allison and I went to Applebees beforehand, then picked up Melissa and went to the Fargodome.  After the concert, Allison and I ended up going to a coworker's (Keiths) and enjoyed a pretty sweet party.  Man I cant wait to party w/ them again... it was so much fun.  Except for me getting hit 5 times in the butt INSANELY hard.  It was hard to walk by the end of the night thats how hard they were... 4 times by Mike and once by Franklin.  Man but those guys are a lot of fun to hang out w/... Played beer pong w/ Nick... lost HORRIBLY... to Franklin and I dont know the guy that was his teammate.  But Nick and I only got 3 shots then the whole game was over and done w/.  Sadness.  The next day my parents were here, and we got my bday present... a digital camera!  And they treated Allison and I to dinner at the Outback.  Twas funness. 

Last friday night (26th) was another toy party... for fun!  Allison N., Crisha, and Jess Meyers all showed up... (ppl I invited) and it was just a lot of fun.  The 2 Allisons and I sat and talked after the party till after midnight! (Party ended at like 9:30... haha) 

Other than that its just been school (18 credits makes anything else pretty hard...), work, and occasionally seeing Eugene and hangin out w/ friends in whatever time is left.  I usually see Gene about once a week... not enough, but it'll work for now.  However... it'll be sad come May when he plans on moving back home to work cuz he'll have graduated MSCTC :(.  But he's planning on coming back for his Masters up to Fargo... so keeping my fingers crossed!

I see a lot of hope in my relationship w/ Gene.  We havent really been moving that fast... just hanging out when we have the time and talking on the phone for a few minutes almost every day.  He just doesnt want to start something then have to move away.  Cuz we all know how well long distance relationships go...  But its amazing how much we have in common.  Our fave state is Montana.  We both have one sibling, he has an older sis and I have a younger bro.  His fave sport is football (he played in HS!), and his fave team is the Vikes (!!!!).  Like seriously... the only really downside (lol) is that he's a Chevy man and hates Fords.  Its always a big joke when we're talking about it lol.  Like he says he has to get some Corvette pics for my walls to go along w/ my 'Stangs.  Man... I hope he comes to give me my bday hug at the restaurant tonight... and that we either hang out tues or wed before our double date :D... cuz I know he has both days off, and both days I get off work at 9, and he's not done w/ class anyway till 8. 

Speaking of tonight... APPLEBEES... 7 PM!!!!!!  Then we're goin to Bucks.  Be there!  Lol.  Too bad Erin's DITCHING on me!  Yeah, I'm just a lil sore about that girl... lol.  Deciding an hour ago to not come cuz its too cold for your moms car... boo.  But I will drunk dial ya like you asked.

Mmk... I need to go work on my spanish essay since that take home test is due tomorrow at 11 am... and Crisha just called... so I'm gonna go and I'll hopefully not be gone a month again!